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Thursday, June 27, 2013

wishing

114 dollars to be in paradise. Mumford and Sons are going to be in Atlanta. I'm so tempted to buy a ticket...but they're so expensive.

Save.

I have to remember to save for college.

Don't worry, Mumford. We'll meet someday.




Saturday, June 22, 2013

boys, dating, and the like

Had a date with Jesus today. Life has been a crazy mix of work, friends, and family. It was so nice to escape to a field and let my thoughts go. I sat in a field, leaning against Daisy (my '98 lexus) with a cup of coffee in my hand and watched the sunset.

It's amazing how often I've said that He's enough, but how rarely I rest in that truth. 

Today, I rested. 

I've felt so joyful and content lately...not always happy, but I've definitely been joyful. For instance today I dug through a dumpster looking for the phone I lost, sprained my ankle, and screwed up several orders at work. Needless to say, I've had easier days. Somehow though, it was marked with a sense of peace.

I'm being reminded that, as Christians, our satisfaction is entirely separate from our circumstances. What a spectacular truth!

I feel so free to pursue whatever God wants for my life. I've dated different boys, but I'm okay if a relationship isn't in His plans for me. He is enough to satisfy. Every time. 

There is so much freedom in that realization. There's freedom to love people without worrying about what they think. There's freedom to be yourself. I think girls panic that they'll be alone, and so they pursue boys relentlessly, but Solomon urges us to, "not awaken love until it pleases." May we learn to rest in the single life!
Today I was reading in Romans where Paul says to "love one another with brotherly affection." That's our call, and so that's what I'm trying to do...with every single person my path crosses.

 It's silly to think that I care more about who I spend the rest of my life with than my Creator does! He holds every detail in His hand. I will go full steam ahead with life:  college, nursing school, some big city for a while, and missions in a 3rd world country...and if I can fit a few dates in, so be it. 

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

the art of simply being

Learning that I'm not good at resting. From the moment I wake up I have a list of things I need to get done. If I take a moment to relax, guilt inevitably follows. 

The List. 
I should ride my horse. I should work out. I should read my Bible. I should meet with that girl. I should invest in that friend. I should clean. I should serve more. 

I think that so often Jesus is trying to speak to us, but he can't get through all the chaos in our minds. We're too busy to hear what he has to say. Often times we're too busy, because we're "serving" or we're doing "church things." Or we're trying to be "faithful" at work, by getting there early and staying late. 

I think the Lord is saying: "I want you. I don't want your sacrifice, and I don't care about what you can do for me. I just want you. I want to spend some quality time with you...I want to listen to your heart, to your hurts and your joys."

May we set aside some time for Jesus everyday this week. May we allow him to minister to our tired, striving selves. May we learn to rest and allow him to "lead us beside quiet waters and restore our souls."




some good tunes if you're feeling dramatic


solid.

The Avett Brothers. Love.

Classic.

One of my favorite bands...


only Miley Cyrus song I will ever like.


Monday, June 17, 2013

good times

I sat on the front porch today and listened to my parents and grandmother talk from their rocking chairs. Later I went on a long walk around the ranch and watched the fireflies...loving home.


Friday, June 14, 2013

black, white, and grey?


The line between right and wrong seemed blurry this past week. After I spent some time with close friends, and took time to rest, things became much clearer.

I'm realizing that I am easily caught up in the world and often lose sight of truth. I'm thankful that I chose to surround myself with people I want to be more like.

May you take some time to rest this weekend and may your closest friends be the ones that encourage you to live wholly surrendered to Jesus. If they aren't, maybe read my last blog post...

P.S. I ran up on a curb pulling out of a parking spot today. Again. It's like a recurring theme. I also park diagonal 90% of the time. I guess I'll always be a terrible parker.

Thankful for: fireflies, wake-boarding, chill friends, car rides, pine trees, silence, books, the countryside, and family time


"as iron sharpens iron, so a friend
sharpens a friend." -Proverbs 27:17

Sunday, June 9, 2013

the ultimate pursuit

" The roots of our hearts have grown down into things, and we dare not pull up one rootlet lest we die. Things have become necessary to us, a development never originally intended. God's gifts now take the place of God, and the whole course of nature is upset by the monstrous substitution. "-A.W. Tozer

Wow. How convicting. There is often such a drastic gap between where I am and where I want to be. I want to be close with Jesus, but I refuse to let go of the things in life that are distracting me from him. For me, those things are people. I'm afraid to surrender them, because I don't really believe that He's enough to satisfy. I've convinced myself that I need someone to feel good about myself, or to fill whatever void I'm feeling at the time. The truth is, until we come to the Lord to be filled, He'll let us keep feeling empty. There are times when God is asking us to surrender a relationship, because, though it will be painful, the end result will be something more beautiful than we could ever imagine.
"For all things work together for the good of those who love Him." Learning to be obedient. 

" I only wanted to remove him from the temple of your heart that I might reign unchallenged there. I wanted to correct the perversion that existed in your love. "

I am so thankful for all the gifts He gives. I'm thankful for family, friends, wildflowers, trucks, coffee, horses, rain, sunny days, music, I Love Lucy, and chocolate. I know He's delighted to bless us with those gifts...but I think He's saddened when we pursue the gifts instead of the Giver, convinced that they'll satisfy us. That they'll make us content. I believe they are great things, designed to point us to Himself. I'm also learning that the Lord is a jealous God, who won't stop pursuing us until He has all of our affections.

Read the A.W. Tozer quotes in Dunkin' today... as it was pouring rain. Again. My coffee was already made when I got to the counter. That's how you know you go somewhere too much. 

Thursday, June 6, 2013

things that make my heart happy.

It's 12 a.m. and I'm waking up at 5 to have my quiet time, do some yoga, eat breakfast, and go to work.
But instead of sleeping I've decided to listen to John Mayer and post pictures....






Wednesday, June 5, 2013

rain, car rides, and coffee

Okay so I'm supposed to only write one blog a day, but today is different. It's raining. When it rains I feel way more artistic than I am, and I have an enormous desire to write. So here I am: sitting on my front porch in a rocking chair armed with a cup of Dunkin' Donuts coffee and a lot of good books. I don't plan on reading, but if you're going to sit on your front porch listening to rain, you must at least have a book in the vicinity. Glad I covered that. Now on to the real subject. Believe it or not, there is a deep connection between rain, car rides, and coffee.  As soon as the rain begins, jump in your car. Now at this point there is a decision to make. I chose to turn on the country music... so naturally, I was pondering boys, backroads, fried chicken, sweet tea, and blue jeans. It is acceptable to choose other genres, but I may judge you. Jack Johnson is also ideal. Car rides are always a great way to think, but add in some rain and bring a notebook, because you're going to come up with something genius (or not so genius, but you'll at least feel like it is...).
Coffee is absolutely necessary.
Why? I'm glad you asked. Coffee is like alcohol for the underaged. It brings us together. We have deep conversations over it. We say more than we wish we did as we drink it (that may be all the time, but for the sake of making my point I'll continue). We can customize it using words like "skinny" and "dry." Most importantly, it keeps us awake and sparks the imagination. If you are over 21, I wouldn't suggest writing down your thoughts as you drink an alcoholic beverage...you'll probably regret it later. Stick with coffee. And so there it is. The reasons why you should drive in the rain with a cup of coffee in your hand.




new faces

There is something incredible about meeting someone for the first time. Two lives filled with different backgrounds, experiences, thoughts, and interests intersect in one moment of time. A moment where either of them could've been anywhere. There is so much to discover and learn from those people, whether you realize they're not someone to be like, or their story inspires you to live in a better way. I used to contentedly remain close to home with the friends I already had, unwilling to venture into the unknown. My old friends are priceless. They're there in the good times, but remain present in the hard seasons. They help me wrestle to find truth amidst chaos. I'm beginning to find that new friends offer something just as valuable. They give me the opportunity to discover where I am in that moment. There's no pressure. There are no presuppositions. I can be whoever I want. At times, I'm sorely disappointed in the way I act, but, at times, I'm excited to find that Jesus is living through me in a deeper way than the year, month, or week before. As a result of this new thought process, I have now begun to seek new faces; expectant to see what the Lord teaches me through them. Who knows? They could become an old friend.


Tuesday, June 4, 2013

music for the soul.

It's rare that I like a cover more than the original. This would be one of those times.

Dear Tom Petty,
John had you beat with "Free Fallin'," but you come through nicely on this one. Wildflowers are better than roses any day.

This song makes me smile.


seasons

It's another day in my home state of Georgia and I'm sitting here marveling at how time flies. It seems like yesterday my Dad was taking me to Daylight Donuts for breakfast; but that was ten years ago, and now I'm eighteen and about to head off to college. Sometimes I don't feel quite ready, but then I remember the words of Jesus. "I haven't given you a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind." What does it mean to have a sound mind? I'm still not sure, but I know what it feels like to fear. Changing seasons can be the cause of a lot of anxiety; whether it's entering the crazy world of high school at fourteen, or transitioning into retirement at sixty. The truth is, they all require a level of trust. A leap into the unknown. A true act of faith. We jump in, trusting and relying on Jesus to catch us, and He always does.